Do you ever wonder why the universe sends you glaring signs over and over that you need to change something but then doesn’t always give you an easy way to do so? I did. I knew so clearly that I was in the wrong career but didn’t know how to change that. One day, I even saw a bright neon sign inside my head screaming at me that I was in the wrong profession. “Thanks Universe, I got it, now what?” I was depressed and felt trapped. On that particular day, I broke down in tears. “I can’t do this anymore.” But I didn’t feel like I had a choice. I wanted to keep my home. I liked having health insurance and food to eat.
I was already exhausted and the thought of building a booming business outside of my job exhausted me even more. I calculated all of my expenses and my income and I determined that I could live off of part of my income, at least temporarily while I built a business. So I decided to go to part-time in my job. I had so much conflict inside of me. Every cell of my body knew it was right, but I had so much fear. I had fear of losing a large portion of my income, but maybe even more than that, I feared asking my boss. It brought back the intense fear I had when I was little and I had to tell my Brownie troop leader that I wanted to quit the Brownies. My mom would not do it for me and she made me go to the woman’s door and tell her myself. I was so scared. Maybe it was a fear of authority figures or a fear of disappointing someone. Wherever the fear was coming from, I knew I was freaking out.
Fortunately, I had tapping. I was already in training to become an EFT practitioner and as part of that training, a person is required to work on themselves with another practitioner. She helped me lower my fears around asking my boss if I could go to part-time. So there I was, my boss in front of me, and I boldly told her that I wanted to go to part-time. Her answer…“No.” I was crushed.
Back to my EFT practitioner, crying and trying to figure out what to do next. I could not continue in a job that left me feeling passionless and empty, sitting at a computer day in and day out, writing the same report over and over with a few facts changed, under constant pressure to meet deadlines and follow regulations, with a workload that was difficult to keep up with. This was not what I had envisioned when I was going to graduate school. I was going to make a difference, but I rarely felt like I actually was.
My EFT practitioner helped me process my devastation and process what to do next. At this point, I was ready to quit. This of course, freaked me out a lot more than going to part time, but I was that desperate. I went back to my boss and asked her what the deadline was to submit my resignation. She didn’t answer me. I waited…over a month. I received many EFT sessions during this waiting period and also tapped on my own. After the month had passed, I asked again about the resignation letter. My boss’s response this time was “Maybe we can reconsider your part-time request.” Yes! I did it!
I have been part-time ever since. My employer pays for part of my health insurance. I still get to eat and keep my house. But most important, I can now focus my time and energy on something that I am passionate about, that makes me excited to get up in the morning. I have been working as an EFT practitioner and am being certified as a Carol Look Yes coach. I am having so much fun with my clients helping them to overcome their challenges and live their passions. I can’t imagine where my life would be without EFT. I am filled with gratitude every day that I now get to do something that I love and change lives at the same time.
